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Chemistry & Reevaluation

by Naheli

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1.
Symbiotic 03:31
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I was gonna get excited – so pumped, ‘bout shoreless situations ahead But then my heart decided – to remind me ‘bout, all the things that could go bad I don’t wanna keep fighting demons, but when I’m thinking how to Make it on my own when they’re beaten – I wonder, who I will be I don’t wanna feel like I need them, but when I’m thinking how to Make it on my own when they’re beaten – I wonder, who I will be Those demons dancing around my soul Should be easy to let them go But we’re – somehow symbiotic – somehow symbiotic So, can I let go, I don’t, I don’t know I had tried to calm them – with some chemistry, some molecules to make them go away But then my heart divided – paradoxic shell of happiness with nothing – inside I don’t wanna keep fighting demons, but when I’m thinking how to Make it on my own when they’re beaten – I wonder, who I will be – without Those demons dancing around my soul Should be easy to let them go But we’re – somehow symbiotic – somehow symbiotic So, can I let go, I don’t know, no, no, no Those demons dancing around my soul Should be easy to let them go But we’re – somehow symbiotic – somehow symbiotic So, can I let go, let go ‘Cause they’re hard to tame, know everything about me I feel drawn and drained – drawn and drained ‘Cause they’re hard to tame, know everything about me I feel drawn and drained – drawn and drained Those demons dancing around my soul Should be easy to let them go But we’re – somehow symbiotic – somehow symbiotic So, can I let go, I don’t know, no, no, no
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I’ll Be OK 03:45
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Seconds in, hours out – like that, yeah – I noticed No good, No fun – got it all along but kept postponing Hours in, nothing out – I got used to being fine with who I’m not I forgot how to steer my life I can’t wait another day It gets more difficult to get out when I try to ignore my pain Can’t take another weight My heart gets heavier, heavier – gotta release it Honestly, I wanna feel like I can let it go, let it go, let it go I don’t know what’s keeping me I know there can be more, so much more – oh I break out my heart, I don’t care if it’s rough Act on my instincts, I’ve listened enough Hearing myself saying – I’ll be ok Won’t work when my body is numb Lost sight, then control, not in denial – it got easier faking All good, all fun, too trivial – didn’t want to be complaining Now I can’t tell what’s in my shell I got used to being fine with who I’m not – I forgot how to steer my life I can’t wait another day It gets more difficult to get out when I try to ignore my pain Can’t take another weight My heart gets heavier, heavier – gotta release it Honestly, I wanna feel like I can let it go, let it go, let it go I don’t know what’s keeping me I know there can be more, so much more – oh I break out my heart, I don’t care if it’s rough Act on my instincts, I’ve listened enough Hearing myself saying – I’ll be ok Won’t work when my body is numb Tonight I’m letting out my feelings – all my feelings – all – until I’m easing Tonight I’m letting out my feelings – all my feelings – until I’m - ooh
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Reign 03:34
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You pull me through, but when the streets are unclear You use my sharpness cut and bring out all my worries and fears Wait before you speed up, I'm trying to rest They can't see you, steps ahead – because you're always here Pacing while I sleep – can you feel it? Pacing while I sleep – trying to beat it Pacing while I sleep – can't you feel it? You're pacing while I sleep – I can feel it, fear it You've been around, took my life to its best But my body's not adjusted, can't be treated like that Wait before you speed up, it might tear me apart You won't see me up ahead, ‘cause I can't always be Pacing while I sleep – can you feel it? Pacing while I sleep – undefeated I'm pacing while I sleep – can you feel it? I'm pacing while I sleep – I can feel it – reigning Pacing while I sleep – can you feel it? Pacing while I sleep – undefeated I'm pacing while I sleep – can you feel it? I'm pacing while I sleep – I can feel it – reigning
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Stay 04:07
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Everything around – too crazy to exist Tell me if you're scared and show me how to give Anything you need and everything you've missed If you're feeling great then tell me how you live Craziness around, right before our eyes Are you feeling scared – I know, I am sometimes And then at last, when you will start to shine I can't wait to hear the stories about your life I'll stay as long as I can be with you I'll stay as long as you might, ask me, need me, want me, feel me – now I'll stay as long as you might need me to I'll stay as long as you might, ask me, need me, want me, feel me – now Stay here – ask me, and I'll always try to Stay here Craziness around, right before our eyes Are you feeling scared – I know, I am sometimes And then at last, when you will start to shine I can't wait to hear the stories about your life I'll stay as long as I can be with you I'll stay as long as you might, ask me, need me, want me, feel me – now I'll stay as long as you might need me to I'll stay as long as you might, ask me, need me, want me, feel me – now Stay here – ask me, and I'll always try to Stay here – even if my heart says Get away here and it breaks me I'll stay here – ask me, and I'll always try to Stay here – even if my heart breaks I'll stay as long as I can be with you I'll stay as long as you might, ask me, need me, want me, feel me – now
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Waves 04:02
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Hold on – here comes the ebb and flow Tell me, where will you go? Deep down, we know nobody knows About this push and pull, push and pull I don’t know How to face the waves breaking on us How to face those waves crashing on us I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know Hold on – we had so many plans Oh no, this cannot be the end So torn when I think about All the stories we haven’t told I don’t know How to face the waves breaking on us How to face those waves crashing on us I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know How to face the waves breaking on us How to face those waves crashing on us I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know How to face these clouds breaking on us How to see the light when it’s nightfall Overpowered by these emotions Drops of salty water to the ocean I don’t know How to face the waves breaking on us How to face those waves – are they taking you away? I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know Where you will go Hold on
6.
Nighttime 02:37
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Snoozing in my ear, knock knock, get clear Frail legs, hand grabs, scrolling down through the chats Shouldn't be like this – I've been taught how to live Well, at least if I wish to feel peaceful, more bliss ‘Cause I can't keep Trying to make it through the mornings Could embrace it, but it's daunting What happens to my brain at night? Wake up tired Nighttime excites me Then morning strikes me I slowly refresh when I should get back to bed Fully charged while asleep, sounds neat But I'm filled with fatigue on repeat, and repeat Always been like this and yet somehow I've lived Got it done, nut the way that I did wasn't fun ‘Cause I can't keep Doin' work all night until it's morning I could embrace it, but it's daunting But what can I do when 2 am my mind goes wild Nighttime excites me Then morning strikes me But what can't I do, when 2 am my mind goes wild Nighttime excites me Then morning strikes me I don't feel too bad, staying in my bed What can't I do Staying in my bed What can't I do Staying in my bed Staying in my bed
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Vanilla 02:44
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I'm Vanilla – won't go partying, I'm goin' chillin' Write my next floor filler – while I'm in my jam jam jams Yeah, I'm thriving – wanna taste? – hop on, I'm driving So damn good, unexciting – that's how I like to move, move, move Ooh – I love it on my own with pyjamas on Ooh – I'm dancing on my own, with no makeup on Ooh – I love it on my own with pyjamas on Ooh – I'm dancing on my own - I'm in the zone No coke for me Vanilla-coke, please No cherry on top No, I won't do shots Call me boring, super safe, but never sorry When I'm Vanilla scoring – that's all I wanna do do do Sweet as syrup – tasting tame, then stir up Your mind, ‘cause I'm Vanilla – and I know, you can be too, too, too Ooh – I love it on my own with pyjamas on Ooh – I'm dancing on my own, put some makeup on Ooh – I love it on my own with pyjamas on Ooh – I'm dancing on my own - I'm in the zone No coke for me Vanilla-coke, please No cherry on top No, I won't do shots Vanilla – Vanilla like that – call me Vanilla – I like it like that Vanilla – Vanilla like that – call me Vanilla – I like it like that No coke for me Vanilla-coke, please No cherry on top No, I won't do shots
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Morning 01:04
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Helium 03:13
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All is perfect, downs have been defeated But the more I rise the stronger fear gets I’m aware, I should float Pounding beats, my pulse too fast to feel the Serenity – my mind keeps interfering I am where I should float I used to feel numb, now I’m tense, ‘cause I, I fear the high – I get scared I fear the high, though I should start to Keep my eyes up – know I, I can now Watch the stars surrounding me I haven’t seen them all so bright – I get scared I fear the high, though I can finally fly Foggy future, now it’s finally clearing Vivid views, my mind could be creating I am where, I should float I used to feel numb, now I’m tense, ‘cause I, I fear the high – I get scared I fear the high, though I should start to Keep my eyes up – know I, I can now Watch the stars surrounding me I haven’t seen them all so bright – I get scared I fear the high, though I can finally fly I used to feel numb, now I’m tense, ‘cause I, I fear the high – I get scared I fear the high – it shouldn't be hard to Keep my eyes up – know I, I can now Watch the stars surrounding me I haven’t seen them all so bright – I get scared I fear the high, though I can finally fly
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Empire 03:29
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Unintended, honest meaning Then you told me about him scheming Clear above my glassy ceiling Still can barely grasp more than your light Trying to find my empire’s door I know that I can’t perceive the world you see And I can’t concede – without you, I’m undone Voids laid bare by interference But can I turn them into revealings All that I am sure is real it Might not be beyond my vivid mind Trying to find my empire’s door I know that I can’t perceive the world you see And I don't want to – wanna try to figure out But when your tale appears intriguing scenes Reveal to me – without you, I'm undone Don’t care about what you’re concealing And I don’t like that I do need it But all that I am sure is real it Fades with you around I know that I can’t perceive the world you see And I don't want to – wanna try to figure out But when your tale appears intriguing scenes Reveal to me – without you, I'm undone And I know that I can’t perceive the world you see And I don't want to – wanna try to figure out But when your tale appears intriguing scenes Reveal to me – without you, I'm undone
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India 02:56
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Skin on glass, we’re moving fast, but reflections Show me that we’re stagnant inside, while the world’s passing by I feel some stares, don’t need to care, got distractions Scrolling through my feed, there you are, turning thoughts into laughs – Exposing me to myself, is it so easy to know me? – ‘Cause – everything you say is about me Through this screen, makes me feel we share a template It’s like everything you say is about me Through a screen, makes me feel we share a template Have you been to Masr Have you met my family and know how I‘ve grown up Have you seen my life Can you read my mind ‘Cause I would sure remember if I had been to India You tell your jokes, my life exposed and it kills me Remember Lauryn said it feels soft, but your words are so rough And my friends who are from Persia and Beirut Lived different lives, yet know what it’s like They say: “Everything you say could be ‘bout me”. Through a screen, could it be we share the same template Everything you say is about me Through a screen, tell me please – is there a template? Have you been to Masr Have you met my family and know how I‘ve grown up Have you seen my life Can you read my mind ‘Cause I would sure remember if I had been to India It feels like I’m a copy It feels like I’m a copy – thought I am, who I am It feels like I’m a copy Can you read my mind? ‘Cause I would sure remember Have you been to Masr Have you met my family and know how I‘ve grown up Have you seen my life Can you read my mind ‘Cause I would sure remember if I had been to India
12.
Common Ground 04:09
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Deep-seated art, sound and design – our passion is reviving On socials share, reform, unite – ‘cause none of us is hiding In the middle but down below, below – writing narratives we can‘t control Our stories were taken, tragedy’s All that’s left, deformed identities On our ruins, we rave and try to forget All we’ve seen ‘Cause we’ve seen it all – east and west In the middle, it’s clear, but no one asks Moving on while we’re writing our songs They could listen but they – I remember when our lands were so intriguing Ya habeebi, men zaman Ya habeebi, men zaman We’ve been around, we’ve shaped these lands – same people, but now frightening Our common ground beyond our past: collective anxiety In the middle but down below, below – writing narratives we can‘t control Our stories were taken, tragedy’s All that’s left, deformed identities On our ruins, we rave and try to forget All we’ve seen ‘Cause we’ve seen it all – east and west In the middle, it’s clear, but no one asks In the middle, we keep on writing our songs They could listen but they – Our stories were taken, tragedy’s All that’s left, deformed identities On our ruins, we rave and try to forget All we’ve seen ‘Cause we’ve seen it all – east and west In the middle, it’s clear, but no one asks Moving on while we’re writing our songs They could listen but –
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Dancing On Ice 04:26
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Gone is my hope Gone are my worries None on my mind While I’m dancing on ice Maybe you can warm me Maybe you exist But for now, I'm done creating Lives I might not live I can’t help but shiver I‘m defenseless in my sleep My outside is unguarded And my inside is run by dreams I never guessed That carelessness Would turn out to be My emotional peak Maybe you can warm me Maybe you exist But for now, I'm done creating Lives I might not live I will not shiver I don‘t care how much I freeze My outside is unguarded But my inside is run by dreams The cold around, it fills me up Nothing warms my heart Cracking ground, but I keep up Dancing on my own The cold around, it fills me up Nothing warms my heart Cracking ground, but I keep up Dancing on my own Nothing on my mind While I’m dancing on ice Nothing on my mind I’m dancing on ice
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Reevaluation 02:30
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Spaces that surround me Moments when I care When I feel existence All just in my head? A theory we are facing All a simulation All our conversations All of our sensations Maybe I am just dreaming Pinch me, am I really here? Or am I just another Thought that you created A reevaluation – all just in my head? A reevaluation – would it change the facts? And does it even matter It feels like we’re alive We use our ones and zeros To read triplets in our genome In awe, we do decline It’s purposely designed Some spiritual creation A game played by some nations An alien’s sensation Or just my imagination I hear some people say The timeline might have changed Clearly, we remember That some facts aren’t quite the same I turn around, look back Buffering the past Moments in my memory This world just does not have Maybe I'm just dreaming
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Reverie 02:33
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Somehow symbiotic Somehow symbiotic Stay here – I’ll always try to stay here Stay here – hold on – I’ll always try to stay here – this cannot be the end Stay here – I've been taught how to live – well, at least if I wish to feel peaceful I can’t wait another day – my heart gets heavier, heavier Maybe I’m just dreaming – my inside is run by dreams – pinch me, am I really here? Serenity – my mind keeps interfering Can you feel it? – pacing while I sleep Shouldn’t be offended Shouldn’t be defensive Molecules that move me Will move on when I’m away I turn around, look back Buffering the past A reevaluation All just in my head? All that I am sure is real it Might not be beyond my vivid – Mind keeps interfering I remember when our – Lands were so intriguing Remember Lauryn said it feels soft – But your words are so rough On repeat

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released October 8, 2021

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Jens Peters

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Johanna Berresheim

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Naheli Cologne, Germany

“European-Egyptian artist, who has always been torn between cultures, continents,
scientific curiosity and artistic drive. Loves to add moments to songs that tickle your body.”

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